A ComSci student's life

Home?

2009-10-26T00:16:00.000-07:00

Yes! School is over and it feels great! However, it all went out the window when I learned that we were going back to Manila for a week I like it here in Davao.. It's great! The people are friendly. The food is awesome The weather has just been terrific [except during afternoons] I'd like to say that i ended in good terms with my fellows. Made new friends Made do with others. Did a lot of crazy stuff. am bored now.. post again when Im not

Neyo - Why Does She Stay

2009-09-20T21:38:00.000-07:00

Why does she stay.......mmmmmmm
Why does she stay......hey.....mmmmmmm
Why does she stay......heyyy.....mmmmmmm....uh

She hates that i dont do dishes
Even though i mess up the most
And she begs me all the time to help her
I know that i should but im lazy so i dont
She’s always considering my feelings
Thinkin of me before herself
Most of the time im so damn selfish
I dont even realize she treats me so well

She’s so much better than me
Im so unworthy of her

Ouhhhhh.....Why does she stay
Why does she stay........why.....

She hates that we dont spend much time
We barely see each other at all
She dont even nag me 'bout always working
She just says i just wish every now and then that you’d call
And i dont know why she’s still here
She could have any man that she wants
I step outside of myself
To see how much she loves me
And all the things that i should do for her that i just dont...just dont...
And i realize

She’s so much better than me ( so much better )
Im so unworthy of her ( so unworthy of her )

Ouhhhhh.....Why does she stay
Why does she stay with me........tell me why....why why why...

She’s in love
She’s in love
She’s in love
And i dont understand
And i dont understand
She’s in love
She’s in love
She’s in love
Gotta be a better man for her
So i take my time and do what im suppose to do
Because i just cant see my life without you

Ohhh ohhhh yeahhhh

Why does she stay

She’s so much better than me
Im so unworthy of her

Ouhhhhh.....Why does she stay
Why does she stay.....tell me why...why why why

Why does she stay
Why does she stay

UP Life

2009-09-16T09:44:00.000-07:00

I can't believe i lasted this long without cracking up!

Failures of a ComSci student 1[?]

2009-07-14T06:54:00.000-07:00

I failed my first math exam!
I was so fucking sure of myself
that I took the test for granted
I underestimated the damn thing

Idiot!

And I call myself a mathematician
I'm a disgrace to the person who discovered math

Confused?

2009-07-11T07:38:00.000-07:00

I feel the world on my shoulders
not because I have a lot of responsibilities
but because I AM REALLY SLEEPY

I think I've found the solution to that problem though..

I just need to type like there is no tomorrow

hahahahahahaha

weird isn't it?
the way life throws the simplest solutions at the most inopportune moments

So that's one problem solved

[I don't usually blab like this so bear with me]

Next is the matter with this girl
I like her, I like her a lot
but I don't wanna make a move yet cause
its only the first semester and it'll seem like I only like her for her looks

So what I did was I got to know her a little more

I kid around with her a bit

I offer to help her out on a few trivial things

I tell her stories about myself

I listen to her stories

Anyway, so we're kinda friends now but

I still don't know where I stand with her

So, I ask her directly cause I'm feeling kinda impatient

She tells me if we could just be friends cause she is too busy for a bf[really?] right now

I say ok cause I dont want to put her down

So I'm all patient now. Patient but persistent.

So, I guess, that's another problem solved

What I'm really all for now is our exam on Math17.....

I don't know how I'll do

Sometimes I get all cocky and say "the test is gonna be easy. don't sweat it"

Other times I get all nervous and think "what if.... then should I....." Right now I'm thinking the test is going to be easy cause we have a really nice teacher....

I'm real tired now

My head is bobbing up and down as I fight for consciousness to finish this

Ah, what the heck?

I'm going to go to sleep

Is it tomorrow already?

2009-06-30T11:10:00.000-07:00

cant sleep.... thinking about all the stupid things i have done and said..... wasted emotions on something so trivial as to losing someone who doesnt care about me..... thinking of trying to talk to her but cant see any point in it...... stupidity or humility? You decide... I say its foolishness

Acceptance of Rejection

2009-06-26T18:25:00.000-07:00

Kill me now
better to kill me now that to experience suffering like this
kill me slowly so that, over time, i will realize that i am dead
end it for me or i myself will execute this inexcusable but necessary plan
End it now

End it now

Damnation

2009-06-23T05:48:00.001-07:00

Today I accomplished an idiotic thing. A thing that I hate very much. I lied to myself... I pretended that I was a happy-go lucky person when all I really was is a selfish, godforsaken idiot I may have to kill myself for this... fool that I am. The goddamned fool that I am has still survived the years of eradication... Stupidity must have some survival value else why am I here, alive and well.

Stupidity

2009-06-18T16:41:00.000-07:00

I may be the biggest fool that has ever lived

start of classes

2009-06-14T00:06:00.000-07:00

Oh, no !!!!!
classes tomorrow....
end of the easy life, and usher in the life of suffering....

Visit - Day 2

2009-06-07T21:59:00.000-07:00

the next day we went to Malagos Garden Resort

where we watched the trainer astounded us as he educated us while at the same time amusing us with the things different kind of birds could do...

Visit - Day 1

2009-06-05T21:20:00.000-07:00

first day wasn't bad... we went to this resort they called Jack's Ridge They have this awesome pool where we swam for an hour or more...

Then we went to Kai's bar to eat... The food was good but..... the place was packed and sweltering hot!

Visit

2009-06-03T21:13:00.000-07:00

Looks like mom is coming to visit here in Davao
And she's bringing Karen and tito jun

I'm going camping in what I like to think of as my new home
Oh, well.....
At least its only for three days...
got to go...

Must change

2009-05-30T22:18:00.000-07:00

busy, busy, busy today as I cram this skin i got from BlogSkins.com so I cant really tweak AND update at the same time... I guess that shows something of my priorities...... Anyway later... going to tweak some more......

Reply

2009-05-28T08:10:00.000-07:00

Cool I got a reply... She is australian.... Check Tara's friendster profile. catch you later...

Friendster

2009-05-27T12:00:00.000-07:00

Hi I was busy with making new friends updating my other sites wheeeew, its very time-consuming that's all....

Reasons (I think...)

2009-05-26T00:00:00.003-07:00

Maybe people have emotions.... to express themselves in a unique way to the people they love.. to make believers out of skeptics.. to make it known that a certain person is special to them.. to alert the person that "hey, I miss this person." and most important (to me) to make the words "I Love You" meaningful..

Noooo......

2009-05-25T00:00:00.000-07:00

I hoped history wouldn't repeat itself But it has...... details later because I'm just passing by......

Question

2009-05-24T00:00:00.000-07:00

Why do people need emotions? Why do they need emotions if it's only going to hurt them? Is it so that they can be sensitive to other people's needs? Is it so that they can be careful in the revelations that they may have? Or is it just to hurt themselves with? This is so confusing........ I hate being confused. [continued]

Things I miss

2009-05-23T00:00:00.000-07:00

I miss... hanging with people I know wall climbing hiking jogging in the morning saturday morning cartoons (cause I wake up late) those are about it for now.. I'll put in more as I remember them.....

Lie - David Cook

2009-05-22T18:02:00.003-07:00

You whisper that your getting tired got a look in your eye that looks a lot like goodbye hold on to your secrets tonight I don't want to know I'm ok with the silence Its truth that I don't want to hear Your hiding regret in your smile There's a storm in your eyes that's been passing for awhile Hold on to the past tense tonight Don't say a word I'm ok with the quiet The truth is gonna change everything [chorus] So lie to me and tell me that its gonna be alright So lie to me and tell me that we'll make it through the night I don't if you wait before you tear me apart So look me in the eye and lie lie lie lie lie lie I know that there's no turning back If we put too much light on we'll see through all the cracks Don't want to know I'm ok with the silence Its truth that I don't want to hear [repeat chorus] Don't want to believe this is ending Let the cameras roll on keep pretending Tomorrow is all wrong if you walk away Just stay [repeat chorus 2x]

What . . . . . .

2009-05-18T17:00:00.000-07:00

Human emotion is a very interesting thing because of its unique ambiguity and in the persistence of its occurrence Its like there is no stemming the flow which is good if the emotion is positive (like happiness, hope) but irksome if negative (like sorrow, remorse) Its supposed to be our (my x's and I's) 3rd year today to the hour And I still feel as if my heart is breaking into so many tiny pieces I wish the feeling would just end But I have known for a long time that wishes do not and will never come true. Is this mourning? Or is it just me missing her? Either way, it will be over soon enough.

Sadness creeping

2009-05-17T00:09:00.000-07:00

Our ex's supposed third anniversary is fast approaching I wish it would pass quickly For I do not wish to dwell on memories that would dampen my optimism I wish it would just pass by and not linger I wish............. I wish............. I wish............. I ......... wish............

House (and what I did)

2009-05-14T02:46:00.000-07:00

Went to some literary gathering It was interesting at first but anything is boring to someone who can't pay attention Let's just say that it was a good thing that the computer was there It all changed that night 'cause the "fellows" as they were called had a Fellows' Night which was held after the panelists pronounced their judgment on all the literary works that have been submitted for their inspection. The event was so funny It was like they shed off their seriousness and the critical things they possesed during the fellows' night

First day alone

2009-05-13T05:38:00.000-07:00

It's my first day alone in the apartment Its quiet Very quiet Just kidding I ate breakfast then; I listened to some music; I read a book; I kinda liked it. But I was still bored Oh well . . . . .

Fall Back Into Me - David Cook

2009-05-12T05:12:00.000-07:00

We've been here before We'll be here again so go on and rest your head Before you lose it again We're leaning on each other Or at least I can pretend That we didn't lose it all again It could have been different It could have been all the same But now I'm standing at your front door, singing [Chorus] When everything's the same And nothing ever changes Will you fall back into me, oh You see, everything's estranged A million empty faces So will you fall back into me? Congratulations You left me a little jaded and rejected And so I lost it again You chew me up, you throw away As I continue to pretend That we didn't lose it again I guess its never different I guess its all the same So now I'm bloodied by my clenched fist, swinging [repeat Chorus] I was a name across your lips It's time to spin me out I play the game when my heart rips It's time to hear out (Never do without) [repeat Chorus] (Will you fall We'll be here again So go on and rest your head Before you lose it again) We're leaning on each other Or at least I can pretend That we didn't lose it all again, all again Lose it all again

Come Back To Me - David Cook

2009-05-11T02:11:00.000-07:00

you say you got to go and find yourself you say that you're becoming someone else don't recognize the face in the mirror looking back at you you say you're leavin' as you look away I know there's really nothing left to say just know I'm here whenever you need me I'll wait for you [Chorus] so I'll let you go I'll set you free and when you see what you need to see when you find you come back to me take your time I won't go anywhere picture you with the wind in your hair I keep your things right where you left them I'll be here for you [chorus] oh I'll let you go I'll set you free and when you see what you need to see when you find you come back to me and I hope you'll find everything that you need I'll be right here waiting to see when you find you come back to me I can't get close if you're not there I can't get inside if there's no soul to bear I can't fix you, I can't save you its something you have to do so I'll let you go, I'll set you free and when you see what you need to see when you find you come back to me so I'll let you go, I'll set you free and when you see what you need to see when you find you come back to me and I hope you'll find everything that you need I'll be right here waiting to see when you find you come back to me when you find you come back to me when you find you come back to me when you find you come back to me

Orientation: first day

2009-05-10T18:27:00.000-07:00

Hello its me again first day of our orientation and I'm already off to a bad start First, I got there late. Second, when I got there I seemed to have lost my nerve. Third, I can't find ANY of my FRIENDS And Last, I CAN'T FIND ENNA. OK, that was an overreaction but a true one. So in came the emcee, then the speakers, then the emcee, then the . . . . Anyway, after two or three hours, we had a break and then I made a break to the exit which was very difficult to do because there was a lot of people in the room Whew . . . . I was out Man, it was cramped in there I got out my cell and started texting "Hey, jerbx wer r u?" No reply... Still no reply.... .... So we had to go back in again to listen to some people about the different colleges, things about the school and stuff like that. [cellphone rings] I got it out text from jerbx "am hir 1 person awy from u" [What!?!] Saw her, said hi, and then went on listening to the speaker But could not do so attentively 'cause I was a bit distracted by the girl sitting next to jerbx So to settle my curiosity I talked to her (simple as that) So I got her talking found out her name was Michin And ,surprise surprise, she was an Architecture student too. Rest of the day went off, for me, without a glitch. Which made it extra boring

Boredom sets in (what I did)

2009-05-09T08:46:00.000-07:00

So I'm in the house with nothing to do Even with the internet connection and everything [I can't believe I got bored even with the internet at my fingertips] So I thought, "hey, why not text Enna?" So I did I got her talking and she said that she'll be staying at EBL for the year I think that I'm . . . .

Orientation: second day

2009-05-08T01:27:00.000-07:00

Same as the last day except they said that there was a tour So in my mind I say [what?!] I must have been crazy that day or something 'cause I spent the day in my head I talked to jerbx a bit, Ate when I had too, made some more new friends. But it still seemed as if I just dreamed it all Because I saw Enna that day and got her number (score!!!) So I wasn't all excited about the tour.

Regitration Day

2009-05-07T06:25:00.000-07:00

What in the world is this mess!?!?!?!

Its like every sane human being on the face of the earth has flocked to this tiny spot and was made to stay there past their breaking point Luckily, there seemed to be a few people who are not so crazy as the ones who run here and there talking as if the world will end unless they start talking The first person I met was Jerby She is an incoming BS Bio student. She is actually kind of cool. Next was Tricia Acuña. She's sorta big to be honest but incredibly funny. Oh yeah, she'll be studying Architecture. Another is Michin. She is very petite. She's kinda cute too in a foreign kind of way because she looks like someone from Korea or something. Last but definitely not the least is Enna Cymbeline Tato. A fellow BS Computer Science student. I kinda like her 'cause she's very cute in my opinion.

Malls that sold stuff

2009-05-06T02:34:00.000-07:00

That was the hottest day of my life, literally. Went to Makro to buy stuff 'cause mum would be going the day after the next leaving me here in Davao It was soooo HOT. (literally not figuratively) I mean you could have roasted a chicken there and still have heat left enough to start a fire At least we got out of there pretty quickly so no permanent harm done When I got home, I rushed to the bathroom and got the water running It was cold water (relief)

The open air market

2009-05-05T02:21:00.000-07:00

The next day, We went to walk to the open air market just a few meters from the apartment It was kinda cool interesting to see the different things people sold there

Arrival (and the things we did)

2009-05-04T02:03:00.000-07:00

We arrived on May 3 I did not know what to do So we went to the apartment, then to the mall Ate lunch, went home

Davao City here I come! (?)

2009-05-03T05:15:00.000-07:00

Going to Davao tomorrow In some ways I'm kinda scared 'Cause I'm thinking will I be able to make friends On the other hand I'm very excited 'Cause I'm thinking that its a brand new place for me which means a brand new start Guess we'll find out soon enough.

Aim

2009-05-02T05:15:00.000-07:00

My aim is to publish at least 1 post a day Its not that hard unless the day will be very boring I hope not

New blog

2009-05-01T05:15:00.000-07:00

Hey brand new blog here named it branded burn-out cause that's what I've been feeling for the past few days